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I am who I am not because I fear who I truly am

My First Second Blog of the Year!

Oh crap! You know what I should've done. . .I should've totally made that previous blog post worth it because guess what. . .it was my FIRST blog post of the year!

Well, I guess I'll make this my first blog post of the year. . .complete with my New Year resolutions! *Cheering audience* And we can ignore the fact that it's actually my second blog post of the year.

Every year. . .every year. . .we all make resolutions to change. We have yet to fail in making them. You may deny doing it because it's so cliche, but you know that you do it anyways because we've all got that one trait in us we'd like to see go. Well, here are my resolutions for the new year:

- Lose weight *no just kidding! I just put that in there for all American purposes*

- Be more patient: that's something I most DEFINITELY need to work on. I'm SO short circuited when it comes to handling my brothers or convincing my parents to do something in my favor.

- Stop converting others to my personal beliefs: I see that I do this VERY often subconsciously with people. When I see that they're doing something I don't agree with, I make them do it my way by telling them that it's the right way. . .but, really, what they're doing isn't wrong either.

- Open up more: If you know me, I guess you're probably thinking that I don't have any more opening up to do. But, I've realized over the past months that I often think one thing, but say something else because I'm too afraid of what others might think if they knew what I really thought. But, what I really think is who I really am. . .and if they like me now, but I don't say what I think. . .then, they don't really like me, do they?

- Be kinder: I'm not one to house strays, help old women cross streets, or smile at strangers. But, I know that when I see someone like that or read about them, I burn inside to be like them. I mean, I know you should be yourself, and never try to be someone else and all that good stuff; but, if you want to be someone better, more power to ya right?

I guess that's about all my resolutions. It's not a long list, but it's a difficult one to achieve. But, that's why you make these promises at the beginning of the year, so that you have an ENTIRE year to fulfill them. And, I for one, am most definitely going to fulfill these promises I've made. Happy New Year you guys. =]

World's Lamest Blog.

Omg. One day left.

Ew school!

Actually, as much as I'm dreading school, I still can't deny the excitement of finally seeing all my friends again and falling back into a daily routine that's been missing from my life for the past two weeks. As fun as winter break's been. . .all that sitting around doing nothing. . .it can get a tad bit tedious. So, scratch that. . .Yay school!

Oh Lord.

Say hello to New Moon's Edward.

Winter Break: Two Days Left!

I should be doing:
Bio
Jap

I am doing:
Blogging

Two more days 'till the blissful break! *so excited*. But, like always, before fun comes hard work. So, this week I'm doing so much hard work! Yay! *pick up on the sarcasm yet?* I'm not really being tested, seeing as how my teachers now believe testing this near the end of the semester is foolish *wanna apply that logic to the finals as well?* However, I am being quizzed. . .or big quizzed, as the teachers like to call it. Apparently, they're worth more than quizzes, but less than tests. . .hence the title, "big quiz".

Monday: Hist quiz *Omg I just loooove that Napoleon*
Tuesday: Bio quiz *Three cheers for mitosis you guys!*
Wednesday: Math quiz *Multiplying square roots are SO much fun*
Thursday: No quiz *I don't believe that. . .there's a twist for sure*
Friday: Bio (again) and English quizzes *Oh Lord, I really can't get enough of meiosis, and as for Dante and his endless circles of hell. . .so much fun I'm having*

Is it just me, or do these teachers always go berserk before a break?

Smile, We're Looking

Which mask will you wear today?

We like to see you smile,
That masque hasn't been seen for awhile.

Down on your hands and knees
Cleaning up the mess you made.
A surely contagious disease
That makes us all afraid.

Is it heavy on your chest,
That bundle of lies?
At night, can you even rest
With so much you despise?

But, you've done it again
Yet to learn from mistakes.
Around your foot, there's still a chain
And in your heart, remain the aches.

So, which mask will you wear today?

Where'd You Go?

You know I won't say sorry
You know I won't say sorry

I'm sitting here, nostalgic for my own place.
I miss sitting crooked on my chair, with the laptop at an angle away from the prying eyes of my parents.
I miss doing my hw on my desk in front of the window so I can smell the night.
I miss ignoring my hw when I'm too tired and jumping on my head, with my feet on the head and my head on the foot of the bed.
I miss going downstairs at 11:00 PM when everyone's asleep to get something to snack on so I can get through the night.
I miss waking up to my dad pouring water on my face at always around 5:40-6:00.
I miss hearing my mom yell at my little brothers for the fifty-ith time to get him up "I already gave you five minutes! I gave you TEN minutes! Get up! Now! Up!"
I miss going down after I'm ready to the kitchen to find my dad making my lunch and breakfast.
I miss my dad.
I miss my mom running downstairs to check that I'm not wearing anything 'stupid'.
I miss my mom.
I miss coming home to that familiar smell of my mom's cooking blended with Glade plug ins (Apple Pie)
I miss talking to my 13 year old brother about school
I miss my little brother.
I miss hearing my 10 year old brother run around the house, screaming.
But, he's with me right now. =]
I miss my home.
I miss my family.
I miss their hugs.
Their kisses.
I miss saying goodnight to them 'shabakhere'.
I miss their love more than anything.